Dandy Cat

This was unexpected: Arcade Fire and Owen Pallett will finally be releasing the soundtrack to one of my favorite films ever, Her. The movie came out in 2013, so it’s been a long time coming. I’m really looking forward to listening to this official version on March 19.

The cover image of the soundtrack to the film, Her.

To wrap up the little dog story, there appeared to be nothing stuck in her nose, but it was red and inflamed inside. I’m hoping she sneezed out what was irritating her and she’s just dealing with some bad irritation.

Fingers crossed that she’ll be feeling better soon. 🤞

And now my larger dog is having painful hip issues, which has been an years-long, degenerative problem. I love these furry goofs, but they’re doling out a lot of stress today.

After two hours of waiting at the vet’s office and not really being listened to, I’ve got to take my dog back tomorrow. For the same procedure she needed in the first place.

They thought it was allergies. I know my dog well enough to know it’s something stuck up her nose.

My small dog has, apparently, gotten something stuck up her nose. She’s sneezing and snurfing all over the place. There’s a vet appointment scheduled for this afternoon, but in the meantime, she’s a sad little pup. 🐶

A small white dog sleeping on the back frame of a comfy couch.

A Sidestep

i.

Unfortunately, this was born out of gloom.

My company, Dandy Cat Design, had been an instructional resource intending to help people design their most productive lives ever. Since very nearly the beginning, it’s a blog that I enjoyed working on and sharing with people. I’ll never stop finding it delightful to hear what others think about what I’ve published. I’ve written a fair amount about starting a blog, why I think a blog is just as meaningful as ever, and why it’s important to start your own (if writing is something you want to do). I won’t get into that again here.

Dandy Cat Design has been lots of things since its inception. The business began as a Squarespace website design service. It then became a place for me to sell Squarespace CSS plugins and business building guides. Most recently, it turned into a blog bent toward the topic of productivity.

The whole thing, too, was born out of the gloom I felt after the death of my father in February 2018.

I put more hours than I can count (mostly because I don’t do a good job of tracking my working time) into Dandy Cat Design. It’s been a tool that’s given me a weekly routine, a creative outlet, and many tasks on which to focus. Unfortunately, it’s also never really caught on and snowballed into the financially stable business I hoped it would become.

This has been discouraging for me, to say the least.

A couple of years into working on Dandy Cat Design, I discovered an educational course from someone named Melyssa Griffin. It’s called Pinfinite Growth. Its intention is to help you grow awareness of and engagement with your business by flooding Pinterest with images of your blog posts/products/website. Stick with it long enough and you may just have the chance to catch the attention of Pinterest’s algorithm. Once you accomplish that, the growth potential can be huge. I started the program because I saw it as a way to bring attention and money to my work. Unfortunately, the only increased engagement I saw with Pinterest was from sharing other people’s content. My website saw no significant uptick in visitors.

(On a side note, Ms. Griffin recently sent out a notice that she’ll no longer be developing or offering this course. She still believes in the power of Pinterest, but she’s focusing on other aspects of her business. She’s come to understand that teaching others how to game an uncaring algorithm isn’t quite as important as helping them become better business people, from the inside out.)

The gloom I felt set in soon after seeing a negative turn in my analytics on Pinterest. Results for a course like the one I took are never guaranteed—how could they be?—but it was still frustrating to pay for it, follow the recommendations, and not succeed.

I felt aimless and stuck, much like I did in my early 20s when I had no idea what the hell I wanted to do.

ii.

In truth, Dandy Cat Design wasn’t created to be fulfilling in one of those deep down, personal ways. It was created to make money. If I could one day feel personally fulfilled by whatever work I do, then that would just be a cherry on top of my life sundae.

Speaking this way tends to feel blasphemous to certain kinds of creative people who have been told by other creative people that their art should always come before, and sometimes in place of, earning a living.

Art above all else. Righteous fists to the sky, and all.

The thinking is that creativity should be all about The Struggle. Without The Struggle, how will you ever be able to understand the grinding, dismal truth of the world—life is pain. Without The Struggle, how will you be able to know how to display that truth in your work?

The general feeling is, if you’re having a rough go at it, then good job! You’re doing art the proper way. Alternatively, If you become successful, then you’re a sell out. Nobody ever mentions that money helps alleviate the need for The Struggle, but then, if everyone had enough money to be comfortable, how could the richest people ever bank more wealth?

It’s a damn shame that artists have let themselves be tricked into thinking their work should be done only for noble reasons, instead of also a paycheck.

I got closer to my 30s than I should have before I realized what a load of harmful nonsense that is. I spent too many years wanting to just create things, and damn the lack of compensation. My art would sustain me!

I wanted to be an actor. No, a cinematographer. No, an illustrator. No, a web designer. No, a… And so on. I leapfrogged from interest to interest without a thought of what I would do to keep from drowning when I finally landed on something at which I had some talent.

I’m supportive of art and its creation, but you’re going to have a hard time creating art if you’re not able to pay for life. The world isn’t really set up, at least not now, to help people who don’t already have some cash in their bank accounts. Life is going to be damn tough if you don’t have at least one eye on the money ball. Money may be the root of all evil, as they say, but it’s also the genesis of life, happiness, and freedom.

iii.

I don’t know what will ultimately become of Dandy Cat. Try as I might, I’m still unable to see into the future (which is a shame because I’d really like to win the lottery). Perhaps this place will wither away to nothing in the future. Maybe it’ll click with the right people and become the uncontrollable snowball of success I think it should be.

I’ve got my fingers crossed for the second one. That would be really cool.

What I do know is, if I’m intent on wanting to create things right now, I need to do it for good reasons. My driving force with Dandy Cat was to become financially independent doing something I enjoy. That’s a fine reason to do anything. While I started it in the hopes of making money, there was also a stink of desperation around my actions. That’s not a good reason to do anything.

Behind every decision I’ve made has been a thick thrum of anxiety. It sounded like this:

“I hope this will all finally work out for me.”

“I hope this move will let me pay off my student loans before I’m dead.”

“I really hope getting into Pinterest will help me reach the point where I don’t have to keep depending on other people for money.”

Basing my decisions off fear instead of level-headed introspection was never going to be a good idea. I usually don’t like the outcome of those choices. I’ve learned that what I’ve done with Dandy Cat up to this point hasn’t helped alleviate my anxiety. In fact, it was growing anxiety, and I was losing interest in the business because of that.

iv.

What can I do to make Dandy Cat healthier for me in the long term? What’s a good reason to keep this going? Those are probably the most important questions I need to answer.

I recently took some significant time off to relax, think a lot, and figure out what would be best for me. I also got married, but that’s a whole other big topic. During that time off, I learned that Dandy Cat as it had been before my break was not bringing me fulfillment or happiness. In fact, it was beginning to feel like the sort of work that I don’t want to do. If I can create something, then I should make sure it’s to my liking.

I realized that what I was writing about and sharing—namely productivity tips and tricks—were, at best, only bandages applied over a greater issue. I wasn’t discussing why someone would and should want to become more organized and productive. Instead, I was suggesting that cleaning out your junk drawer would totally transform your life. Not only is that untrue, but it’s irresponsible. I was following the lead of so many other bloggers out there—only discussing tools and not issues. Junk drawers aren’t the underlying problem; the problem is deeper down. Coming to this conclusion helped me reach another one: I like being organized and productive in my life, but I don’t particularly feel like writing about it. Not weekly, anyway.

I feel like I shoehorned the topic of productivity into Dandy Cat’s stated mission. When I settled on productivity and organization, it was because it felt like a popular topic at the time. Hey, it was working for Marie Kondo, so why couldn’t it work for me? I didn’t choose it because that’s what I’m thinking about all day, every day. Instead, I chose it for superficial reasons and that’s why my enthusiasm for it waned.

Now, I want to do what’s healthier for me, and that means writing about whatever the hell I want to write about. I’m more interested in Apple, technology, movies, tv shows, music, books, podcasts, animals, my life, and yes, sometimes even a cool new task manager app. I’m impressed with and love the work John Gruber does on Daring Fireball, Jason Snell does on Six Colors, and Jason Kottke does on kottke.org. I don’t mean to be a facsimile of them, but I do mean to try to live up to the quality of their work.

I’m at a different place now. I want to know what it feels like to do something for the gosh darn, roll around, throw confetti in the air joy of it. If I want to continue creating things, I need to do it for my enjoyment first. That means figuring out what I really like talking about and publishing that. It’s probably not going to be cleaning tips.

Furthermore, this may mean that Dandy Cat isn’t my only job. Remember, money is still important.

I’m also going to pull the trigger on something I wrote about in a Dandy Newsletter a while back: Dandy Cat Design is now, simply, Dandy Cat. It’s cleaner and now more representative of the topics I’ll be talking about, or rather, won’t be talking about. The word “design” doesn’t fit anymore, so it should go. From now on, you can go to dandy.cat to find my work.

v.

Writing this has been cathartic. I can’t think of a clearer sign that I should do more of it.

I can’t promise myself that I’ll remain gloom-free forever, but I can turn that feeling into something healing and meaningful. I can try to walk out of the gloom and into the sunlight.

And hey, I didn’t need to eat an enormous carton of ice cream to feel better either.

A new episode of my More Movies Please! podcast was released today. This week, we talked about the brilliant Ridley Scott film, Blade Runner. This was a fun one.

Micro.blog hasn’t produced any frustration. Its customization challenges are more like fun puzzles. I left Micro.blog to save some money, but Ghost ended up costing more, in many ways. I’m looking forward to building something more fun here.

Okay, website service update over.

My return to Micro.blog stems from my frustration with Ghost. Like most website creation services, it’s great if you don’t want to do much beyond the basics. I wanted to do more, but didn’t understand their code (which is my own failing). It produced headaches for me.

While I’m on a sharing podcasts kick, here’s the latest episode of my much longer running show. It’s called More Movies Please! This week, we watched and talked about The Hunt for Red October. It’s a great episode for an excellent movie.

I’m doing a bit of catching up and getting some parity between here and my previous website. This means plugging the podcast I ran until late last year. It’s currently on hiatus while I figure out what I want to do with it. In the meantime, enjoy!

Damn. This one sucks. Christopher Plummer was a phenomenal actor. He was in Beginners, one of my favorite movies ever, among many other great, important films. I’ll miss him a lot. 😢

Now that I’m back on here, I’m looking to make my blog look great. I’m particularly enchanted by @Burk’s website. That’s some stellar work. Unfortunately, I’m running up against serious limitations in my coding knowledge. Time to go try to learn everything about Hugo, I guess.

After far too long away, I want to make a reemergence here. I always loved the community, but had to focus on other projects. In the interim, I think I learned a lot that I’ll be sharing soon.

So, hello. It’s nice to see you all again. 🥳

I recently purchased a product from Schiit (a previous generation Magni device). It shipped without stick-on rubber feet. After writing them an email, they’re going to be sending me some for free. The postage probably costs more than the feet. Talk about great customer support.

NBC’s streaming platform, Peacock, will be available on Wednesday and, unless I’m not looking in the right places, I’ve heard crickets about it. I hope it’ll do well. I’m a huge fan of Psych and would very much like the new movie to be a hit.

I watched Top Hat with my fiancée on Sunday for my More Movies Please! podcast. Talk about a fun, delightful, and hilarious movie. Fred Astaire and Ginger Rogers are always on another level. 🎥🍿

I spent a good portion of the weekend setting up my new Synology and moving over the many movies and shows I’d already ripped, with more to come. Everything is going into Plex, which is working like a dream. I’m having a lot of fun curating this new digital library of stuff.

I’d really love to upgrade my microphone interface to something sturdier and less software dependent than the Focusrite Scarlett 2i2. My dream interface is the Sound Devices USBPre 2, but damn is it expensive! What gives with that price?

I watched Sweeney Todd: The Demon Barber of Fleet Street again for my More Movies Please! podcast. I have a newfound appreciation for that outstanding, violent, emotional film. I thoroughly enjoyed it. 🎥🍿

Yesterday, I made the decision to remove the analytics service I’d been using on my website. It wasn’t adding any substantial benefit to my work and I’m not driven by ad clicks, so I figured, why keep it around? My interest is in engaging with people, not counting page visits.

I never really watched Chilling Adventures of Sabrina, but news of its cancellation still feels bad. Who knows now if it could have ever developed into something truly noteworthy. Netflix is resembling FOX these days: completely blind to the real value in its best shows.

In my ongoing saga of trying to get a decent and easy to use Plex server going on in my house, I’ve now just decided to get a Synology. This looks like it’ll be a much easier solution and I’m looking forward to setting it all up soon.

My now former eero setup died on me earlier today so $250 had to be plunked down for a new trio of routers. It’s nice to have reliable internet again. I’m hoping this set will last just as long as the previous one did.

It’s clear that whoever’s adding foods to calorie tracking apps has no idea what numbers actually mean. The box of the meal I just scanned says it has 360 calories. The app reports 320. This happens all the time. I feel like I’m taking crazy pills here!